In high school, I had a ton of friends.  We hung out in a big group and there was always someone over at my house or calling.  Then, I went away to college.  My high school boyfriend when about 3 hours away from me.  I lived for our weekends we would see each other.  I never made any good friends that first year of college. 

I transfered to another school to be closer to home.  My high school boyfriend and I broke up.  I did manage to make some good friends that year.  My third year of school, I met a boy and began dating him.  Long story short, again, I let my friendships fizzle out (sense a pattern here??).

After high school, I just never seemed to be good at making friends.  I never had someone that called "just to talk".  I never had someone that I did everything with or who was there for me when I needed to talk.

After the birh of my first daughter, I decided to start a mom's group for working moms so that I would make some friends.  And I did make some awesome friends. 

Then, after the birth of my second daughter, I had post partum depression.  Part of that was just stay at home and not even make the effort to go out or to even talk to anyone.  Those awesome friends that I made with those great women fell apart - and I take full responsibility. 

I think that on and off I still suffer depression.  There are times I just want to stay home and not make the effort to try to socialize with people.

Tonight, I have decided, "no more!"  I am lonely.  I think it's probably too late to mend the friendships that I let fizzle out (again, I take total responsability for that).  I will have to find a way to meet and make friends, but it's time.

I have a great family, but it's time I had some "girlfriends".  Do you have a good friend you always count on?  Or a group of girls?  I would love to hear about your friends (or lack of like me) in the comments below.