I used to think that young, healthy women who chose to remove their breasts to decrease the risk of breast cancer were crazy. Then I became one of them.

Let me explain. 

I am 38 years old. I am a wife and mother of two boys under age 5; full-time executive, part-time blogger. I exercise regularly, keep an eye on my diet and have completed a total of 10 full and half-marathons. I also have a significant family history of breast cancer—which means I have seen a breast specialist every 6 months and had an annual mammogram, sonogram and MRI for the past 10 years. I’ve had four breast cancer scares over the course of six years. And in the past nine months, I've had both of my breasts and ovaries removed.

And I’ve never been happier.

Now, don’t get me wrong. Preventative surgery is not for everyone. Even with a history and genetic makeup like mine, surgery is not an obvious or easy choice. But for me and my family, it was the right choice. 

Ten years ago when I began the process of special screening for breast cancer, I looked at it from a very practical perspective—my genes are out to kill me, so I will do everything in my power to stop them. While the screening was nerve-wracking, I never gave it much thought. I kept my appointments like clockwork and always assumed the results would be negative. 

That all changed on February 6, 2007, when my first son was born. Suddenly, there was a tiny human being who depended upon me for everything. I couldn't get sick, take a vacation, work late … or die. Fast forward to January 9, 2009, with the birth of my second son, and suddenly I had twice the number of reasons not to die. Becoming a parent forced me to confront my family history in ways that I never had before.

After testing positive for the deleterious mutation of the BRCA2 gene (more commonly known as the “breast cancer gene”) in April 2010, I learned that in addition to my risk for breast cancer I was also at an elevated risk for ovarian cancer. Women with BRCA mutations have a 36 to 85 percent chance of developing breast cancer in their lifetime (the general population has a risk of roughly 12 percent) and a 16 to 60 percent chance of developing ovarian cancer by age 70 (the general population has a risk of less than 2 percent). * 

According to my breast specialist, Dr. Stephanie Bernik (chief of surgical oncology at Lenox Hill Hospital in New York City), screening is an alternative to surgery for women with BRCA mutations. The problem is, “some studies suggest that even with intense screening, you are not guaranteed to catch breast cancer at an early stage.” Dr. Bernik emphasizes that the survival rates are great when breast cancer is caught early. But the higher goal isn’t survival, it’s avoiding cancer and treatment in the first place—especially for women like me.  

Breast cancer screenings are not foolproof, but ovarian cancer is much more insidious, with annoyingly general symptoms like abdominal bloating and irregularity. According to my “ovary doctor,” Dr. Stephanie V. Blank (gynecologic oncologist at the Women’s Cancer Program at NYU Langone Medical Center), the recommended course of action for BRCA positive women varies from person to person. Surgery is the best preventative option available today. However, Dr. Blank emphasizes it is not the right option if a woman isn’t sure she’s finished having children or simply is not comfortable with the idea. “It often takes some time for a woman to get used to the idea of taking her supposedly normal ovaries out to prevent a disease, so [for some women] the decision can take months or years.” If a woman is not ready for surgery, as was my case when we first met, Dr. Blank discusses “the limitations of screening for ovarian cancer—false positives, false negatives and the stress that screening can cause without definite benefit.” 

The turning point came for me in October 2010, when there was another suspicious finding on my regularly scheduled breast MRI. Within a matter of days, I had an MRI-guided biopsy and spent yet another sleepless week waiting for the results. When I went to see Dr. Bernik for my follow-up, she happily informed me that the growth was benign. I was actually shocked to hear myself tell her that I’d had enough. While preventative surgery always seemed extreme to me, the thought of looking over my shoulder every six months for the rest of my life was simply too much. That day, I spent nearly an hour discussing every detail of the surgery with Dr. Bernik and almost two hours discussing my reconstruction options with Dr. Oren Lerman (plastic and microvascular surgeon at Lenox Hill Hospital).

On December 15, 2010, I had a prophylactic radical bi-lateral mastectomy with diep flap reconstruction (or, to you and me, a microsurgery using my own tissue to reconstruct my breasts). While it was a harder decision to remove my ovaries, my husband, Angel, and I had decided shortly after the birth of our second son (mreo than a year before I learned of my BRCA status) that our family was complete. On September 22, 2011, I had a prophylactic bi-lateral laparoscopic salpingo oophorectomy (I know, it totally sounds like something out of Dr. Seuss, but it basically means a minimally invasive surgery to remove both ovaries and fallopian tubes). 

It’s been nine months since I had my mastectomy and just over a month since my oophorectomy. While this has been the single most challenging year of my life, I can honestly say that taking these aggressive steps to prevent cancer from cutting my life short was one of the best decisions I have ever made. I could have continued looking over my shoulder every six months, hoping and praying that the tests would remain negative. Instead, I chose to tell cancer to f*&k off. You want my breasts? Take 'em! Now I have a better pair. You want my ovaries? I was done with those anyway.

I chose my kids. I chose my husband. And I chose me.

Sherice Torres is a full-time executive, part-time blogger and year-round BadAssMama. She is a WorkMom blogger for workingmother.com and creator of the BadAssMama Chronicles (www.thebadassmamachronicles.com).

*Source: National Cancer Institute, National Institutes of Health