I have now completed 3 more trips for work since returning to work. One was by myself and the next two I brought the family. Before my second trip, I went in for a procedure called Essure to become permanently "fixed." But after the Dr was in, he decided I had too much scarring and performed a tubal ligation. One week of healing time and I took my second trip. Sometime around the third and fourth trip, I contracted some sort of virus that resulted in a sinus infection. Sometimes, I wonder what I did wrong to always have "something" going on that isn't exactly positive.
But the good news was I did get a nanny at the beginning of October and she was able to go with us on one of our trips. What a great help this has been. It was so tough to leave all the wonderful workers at daycare, but the relief of not having to get my children ready in the mornings and drop them off at daycare is an amazing feeling. It relieves a lot of stress. And then having the extra assistance in the evenings is great too.
I have even been able to implement a workout schedule into my life again. Mainly because I am not so stressed about taking the kids out again. Since the kids are around the house most of the day, I do not mind taking them to daycare at the gym. It gives me some sanity and it wears some energy off of my 4 year old. My baby gets held and that is all she really wants in life right now!
Life continues to be hectic. I don't think I make it easier on myself at times. I believe my husband and I are both running in circles trying to make sure that we are successful in business and "perfect" in other areas of our lives.
I was talking to a few of my girlfriends that are Moms and we were discussing when you begin to feel like yourself again. They say it is when your child can get into the carseat by themselves. I am trying very hard to get back to myself much sooner than that! I think that is what makes things more complex. I miss my old self.
Do remember back in the day when we all wanted to be indepedent and on our own...paying our own way so we could make our own decisions. Well, if we only knew all the responsibilities that would be on us and how much was expected from us...would we feel the same way?