I love my life journey.  I continually strive to expand my life and be of service to others.  The mental block walls I run into are limiting beliefs I have about myself.  These beliefs erode my confidence and they can also make me feel I am less than a woman than I am.

I know intellectually this is B.S., but emotionally I hang on to these beliefs as if they were the truth.  What makes this so difficult is that I don’t know what I don’t know.  I do not know what belief I have that holds me back.  It can be frustrating at times because I know there is something there, I just don’t know what.

So what do I do?

I read, I pray, I meditate and I talk about what is going on in my head.  What my past experience has proven is if I do this, sooner or later the situation that instilled the limiting belief in me will pop up and I can address it.

That happened to me this past Friday.  It happened, of all places, in a small group meeting at my church.  We were in deep discussion around a variety of questions and the question was asked to all: ‘Recall a time when someone you loved suffered.  How did you respond?’

I was emotional about this question and couldn’t figure out why.  When I got home that evening I decided to meditate on it and within 10 minutes … Bingo!

I was taken back to my best friend Brenda from high school.  Her mother had passed away giving birth to her.  She was raised by a father who mourned his wife.  You can imagine my friend had a hole in her soul she was always searching to fill.  She contracted leukemia and passed away at 20 years old never being able to fill that hole.

I was taken back to the young woman I was at the time and can clearly see that I decided to take on the task of trying to fill her hole and I had failed to accomplish that before she passed.  Today, I can see that it was never my responsibility to take on that task.  There was no way I could have possibly succeeded.

What that limiting belief has been doing to me is holding me back to fully give of myself in service today.  I was afraid I would fail others like I failed my best friend from my youth.  On Friday night, I was able to let go of that limiting belief.  Immediately, I felt as if a 50 pound weight had been lifted off of my soul.

And my confidence, it has soared.  Life is good.