The year was 2001 and I remember the day I moved into my new home and stared at all the white walls and I wondered what the hell I was going to do with it all. So many colors to choose, what if I screw up and the house comes out like a circus or a freak show! My husband reassured me and said it was only paint. OK, so that made me feel better. As I proceeded on my journey to make this home something beautiful I decided I wanted earthy tones but not beige because everyone knows beige is boring. As I walked out of the Benjamin Moore store I recall feeling quite proud of my purchase of Peanut Shell Paint. I was excited.
As we put up our first coat of paint I remember what my hubby said to me. He said, “Hun, do you have some jelly to go with this Peanut Butter?” I wanted to kill him but I burst out laughing instead. My walls really did look like a Peanut Butter sandwich but we loved it and we still love it to this day.
You see, I had a vision. The vision was that once the carpet, furniture and paintings were all in tact the walls would exude a sense of comfort not one of hunger pangs.
When it comes to blogging, I often feel like I’m staring at that same blank white wall. When I first got started with blogging I knew I had more stuff to say that I did not think there would ever come a time that I might actually run out of something to say. Well, this is a half truth. The other side is that what I really want to say, I can’t. I can’t because it might (a) get me fired or (b) get me in all kinds of trouble with a whole lot of people. Now, I don’t have bad things to say about my employer or anyone in particular (and shame on you for thinking that) but what I want to say might just …. stir the pot. It might raise some questions, raise some eyebrows, raise some debate and controversy. Would that be a bad thing? Either case, I have chosen these past few months to sit in silence hoping something else of interest might come to my brain and ultimately land on the keyboard.
Nope. Nothing. Not a damn thing.
So here I am staring at my peanut butter walls, with my laptop, hoping something magical might occur.
Sometimes, silence is golden.
*Silence is golden is a proverbial saying, often used in circumstances where it is thought that saying nothing is preferable to speaking