Have you ever felt insecure at work? I have and still do. At the risk of sounding arrogant, I must say that I am a pretty skilled worker. I am efficient, hardworking, creative and all my clients love working with me. Yet somehow I cannot help but feeling like a colleague of mine garners attention and praise for anything and everything he does. By nature I am very shy, reserved and introverted. Although that does not reflect in the work that I do, it does impede me from making small talk at the workplace. I have realized that even if you are a good worker, sometimes you do need to advertise what you have done, albeit in a humble manner. How else does everyone get to know about it.
Once I became a mother, I had set up goals for myself at the workplace… something to measure my success there by. Feeling insecure threw all those goals out of the window. It somehow felt like that was not enough. Why was I measuring my success using someone elses ruler all of a sudden? Why was I self doubting myself? Why did I find myself attempting to chit-chat at the workplace? As my husband told me “That is how people evolve. If you are always satisfied with what you have, life is not challenging enough. Sometimes you need new goals to aspire to.”
So thank you insecurity, for challenging me to be the best I can be, for making me realize that I can do more than I set out to do.